When I was younger I would hop on my bike and disappear for a whole day.. I would go to the corner store and get some chips and a coke and then ride over to the creek and do some fishing and just didn't have any real responsibilities other than putting the chain back on the gears when it popped off, my chores, or going home for dinner. I never would of thought just over a few years things can drastically change. I had gotten a job while I was in high school as a dishwasher at a Chinese Restaurant and saved enough money to buy a 1991 Geo Prizm (I had a 1971 Ford Galaxy 500, a 2000 Honda Civic, and I currently have a 2004 Saturn, so let's make that clear) that my dad had bought for my brother Adam that he can use when he got back from his mission until he could afford a more reliable one... and to be honest, I drove that car like there was no tomorrow.. I even slept in it the first night of having it.. Well I made a habit of doing that every time I get a car LOL.. I just miss lying in the grass looking up in the sky; imagining them what they are by the way they were shaped (I KNOW WE ALL HAVE DONE THAT), the riding on bikes with my friends and just living life.. To be perfectly honest.. Life was very easy being a kid than it is as an adult.
Time is a funny thing.. it changes a lot no matter what. It can make your friends become your enemies, your enemies become your friends, a lady friend becomes your wife, and you become a husband to a friend. It can go really slow but to be honest it was almost at a stand still growing up. As you get older you will realize that time moves faster and faster and before you know it you're a grown up. Seems like just yesterday I was standing in line tellin g jokes or trading baseball cards in the lunch line with my friends in elementary schoool.
As we get older more and more responsible we become. We have cell phones, jobs/careers that are time consuming, we are paying rent and living with strangers as roommates, we are getting our own groceries and cooking for ourselves and our dates.. We are becoming our parents.. Without the having kids part (unless you're already married with kids, then sorry to say you are parents).
Growing up is a wonderful thing and an excellent learning experience but no one had warned me it was going to come; and at the same time.. Its kind of scary how it sneaks up behind you and fills your soul with responsibilities and worries. Like getting laid off because of the economy being the way it is, having annual evaluations at your work which makes you wonder if you are just doing enough to get by, that you're going the extra mile, or you're just flat out lazy.. When I was younger I wanted to be many things but reality of it is that to be those things takes a lot of hardwork and effort. Like when my brothers and I would play cops and robbers I was always playing it safe and being the Chinese Railroad Worker.. Or when we played capture the flag I was the decoy.. the enemy would run after me as my teammate can run over and get the flag. Its just weird how you automatically stop doing all these many things without doing them one last time (or even going back doing those things).
It could be while my patients are sleeping at night my mind just goes 1 million miles per hour and think of weird things about myself or other stuff in general. I guess I am doing this to give people warning that when you get older you grow out of things that seemed like a blast and you pick up some things that don't seem as much fun like going to college, moving out of your parent's house, working, getting things done for your car so you can just keep it running instead of getting the latest stereo system or the loudest subs put in. Or I am doing it so you don't make fun of me if I go back doing these things ;-). Its just so different now compared when we are younger.. it blows me away when I look how time has changed things.
Time can be your best friend or your enemy. I guess all you can do is for let time to go by to see what happens.
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